Special thanks to eleni for the chapter title suggestion.
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'Breath Justin, breath.', he thought to himself when he entered the loft.
Flashes of another night appeared in front of his eyes.
He clearly could see a man walking in front of him, black leather jacket, tight jeans molded to long legs.
Sex on legs.
Justin smirked, and shook his head.
That just couldn't be.
Cooper had entered the loft behind him and pulled on the leash, so that Justin would let go of it.
Justin did just that.
As soon as the leash hit the ground Cooper ran around the loft like crazy.
His first destination was the bedroom, and with fright Justin followed him.
He was afraid of what he might find there, somehow he was afraid that more flashes would consume his mind once he entered the open room.

"Please Cooper, come back into the...ehm...how to describe it? Main Living room?", confused Justin looked around the huge loft, he sighed.

Cooper came back into the center of the room and sat down in front of Justin.
He looked at him with a funny expression, as if he was relieved that he was here now.
Justin thought it looked like Cooper would smile, but he could also be wrong.

"How do you like it?", Justin asked and bent down to Cooper to pull him into an embrace.

The flashes didn't stop.
He still saw a tall man, as if he was still there.
Still walking around the loft, only he wasn't.
It was only Justin's imagination.
He shook his head and pulled Cooper closer.

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<b>It's good to be back.
I'm really relieved that nothing changed while I was 'away'.
Justin looks a little frighten.
I wonder why, I mean it isn't as if Debbie hadn't told him he could stay here.
Paranoid would describe Justin's haunted look the best.
I bark to get his attention, and it works.
For the first time since we'd entered the loft he doesn't look like any second someone would appear behind him and stab him.</b>

"Coop, I'm afraid. Somehow I know I was here before."<b>, Justin says and I step back.

What does he mean, he was here before?
That couldn't be. I would know.
I could never forget such a perfect ass.
Could I?
But then again, why do I also have the feeling that it feels right to have Justin here?</b>

"OH MY GOD!"<b>, I hear Justin shout from the desk where my notebook is lying and I'm a little confused.

What the hell happened now?
Found my 11 inch dildo?
I trot over to the desk and bark again to get Justin's attention.
He looks down at me and that's when I see what Justin is holding in his right hand.
The picture frame which normally stood on my desk directly under my desk-lamp.
With the first picture ever taken of Gus and me.
The picture from the hospital, but I never knew who took it.
Never asked about it, just took it for granted that it was there.
Gus was born and the next morning the picture was there. Full stop.</b>

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Justin was kind of dumbstruck when he found the frame standing under the lamp.
So, he really was here before.
Here. With him. With Brian.
This just couldn't be happening.
It was all a terrible mistake.
Why was he here now?
Now that the guy was out of town, out of reach for Justin?

"Brian and Gus...", Justin mumbled when he looked at the picture again.

He was there. There at the hospital.
He knew now why he had a feeling that he knew Gus before.
Gus was the guy's son.
Justin looked down at his dog who sat there, patiently waiting for something interesting to happen.
He bent down to the animal to show him the picture.

"You see that? It's the guy I've been looking for for years.", Justin sighed and Cooper trotted closer to him, to take a look at the picture.

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What do you mean you have been searching for me?
What exactly are you?
Some crazy stalker? A kid I didn't want to fuck?</b>

"This is the guy who took my virginity."<b>, I look into his eyes and see the earnest there.

Holy shit!
I really popped his cherry and can't even remember.
Fucking shit.
Justin starts to pat me behind my ears and sits down on the cold hardwood floor.
He stretches his legs and I sit down in between them.
Come on, now that you've started I want you to finish.
It's not everyday that someone lets drop such a bomb without an explanation.
You really got me hooked Sunshine.
Was it really you, that I forgot about?
The one fuck I always regretted because I fucked someone and cared about him, but couldn't remember him?
I bark to get his attention and when he looks up a lump forms in my throat.
Teary eyes are right in front of me.
Looking at me with a lost expression.
Without thinking about it I put my head under Justin's chin to comfort him.</b>

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