Rating: R-Language
Beta: Helen
Banner: Helen
Proof: G.M.
Note: Song Lyrics are in Italic. Also, I don’t own I got from Azlyrics.com, Avril Lavigne: “When You’re gone.” Also “Keep Holding On”
Joan: “Justin, I want you to stay here.”
Justin: “I can’t. Thank you, but no.”
Joan: “Why not?”
Justin looks at Brian and back at Joan.
Justin: “What happens if Brian and I break up?”
Joan: “Nothing, you would still live here.”
Brian: “Who says we are breaking up?”
Justin: “I’m sorry, I can’t.”
Justin gets up and leaves the house.
Two Months Later….
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you
Brian is lying on his bed staring at the ceiling like he has for the past two months. The only movements are him smoking. He, of course, never notices that his bedroom door is open and Daphne is standing there.
She walks over and lies across the opposite side of the bed so that their heads are next to each other while their bodies are hanging off the side. Brian hands Daphne a cigarette but like always, she turns it down. For the next few minutes there is silence.
Daphne: “Brian.”
Brian: “Daphne.”
Daphne: “Are you getting up today?”
Brian: “Why?”
Daphne: “Because for the past two months you only go to school and come home. You’re not Brian anymore.”
Brian just lays there.
Daphne: “Come see a movie with me, please?”
Brian: “No.” (Inhales and blows out smoke)
Daphne: “Why the fuck not?”
Brian: “Because that Brian is dead. He died when “he” left.”
Daphne sits up and looks at him.
Daphne: “You what? FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!! You aren’t the only fucking person he left. He was my best friend and he left me alone too. I hate him for leaving so get the fuck over it. I miss him too, trust me; he has been my best friend since we were in fucking diapers. I’m sick of this. So, fuck you!”
With that Daphne storms out of the house and Brian is once again left alone but for the first time in two months, he finally lets the tears fall.
Justin’s POV
I didn’t mean to leave like I did, but I had to. I couldn’t do that to him. I couldn’t risk breaking his heart the way I have broken my mom’s. I am a failure right now and I know it. I didn’t even leave Pittsburgh at first; then I realized that I couldn’t stay in the same city with him and not touch him, or be with him. So, I left, I went to New York; and no, I haven’t sold myself, I refused to so; I work at restaurant as a waiter. I make decent money but I feel lost and I miss him. God, do I miss him! I can’t help but always pick up the phone and dial his number.
Brian on the phone,
Brian: “Hello.”
I can’t speak, I want to but I can’t.
Brian: “Justin…”
Justin: “Brian (he whispers) I’m sorry.” (hangs up)
Brian
He called fuck… He fucking called.
Justin
I am so stupid. I want to go home, I need him.
Joan
I know how hard it is for Brian. I feel for him and I feel for Justin. I went to Jennifer when he didn’t come back here and she said she never saw him and if she did she wouldn’t care. I mean, what kind of a mother can turn off so fast like that. I wish there was something I could do, but there isn’t. I filed a missing person’s report but they said they had to stop looking and focus on more important things.
Brian ran downstairs to the kitchen to tell his mom; at first she didn’t believe him but she knew he wouldn’t be this happy if it wasn’t true. Now they just had to figure out where he was.
Two Days later
Brian was home alone for the first time in two months, everyone had been afraid to leave him alone. Since Justin’s phone call he was a little better; nothing would be better though until he had Justin back. He knew he would in time. He believed he would and he vowed he would never let him go again. It was around midnight when the phone rang.
Groggily answered,
Brian: “Hello.”
Justin: “Brian
Suddenly awake.
Brian: “Justin, are you okay? Where are you?”
Justin: “Um… I’m in New York.”
Brian: “Okay. Are you okay?”
Justin: (fights the tears) “No.”
Brian: “Where are you exactly in New York?”
Justin: “The bus station.”
Brian: “Why?”
Justin: “I want to come home.”
Brian: “Then come home.”
Justin: “You’re going to hate me and I can’t hurt you anymore.”
Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through