Yawning, I roll over to see Kevin tying his shoe. 

"Where are you going?" I ask.

He turns to me and smiles. "I've thought alot about what you said yesterday. Ya know, about us fighting everyday and I have decided that today was not going to be one of those days. So I'm going to the grocery store, the one in Pittsburgh on Liberty Ave that sells all that organic food, and we're going to have a romantic dinner. Just the two of us. Clothing optional." 

I can't help but smile back. "Hurry back." 

He leans down and pecks me on the cheek. "Oh, I'm also stopping at the video store, florist and I need to go to Linds and Mel's for a second." He kisses me again just about the time I find myself drifting back to sleep.


A pounding pulls me out of blackness and I can't figure out where it's coming from. It gets louder and I realize it's the door. "Fuck. I'm coming!" I scream pulling on a pair of pants. The knocking gets more insistent. "I'm coming already! Stop fucking pounding!" 

I finally reach the door and pulling it open to a very dishelved and dazed looking Justin. His fist is still in the air in some mid-pound stance. "Uh, hi." He blurts.

"Justin?" I rub my eyes. "What the fuck are you doing here? And so early in the morning."

"It's noon." He replies. "I just need to talk to you."

I nod. "Fine. But only because Kevin's not here right now." 

He nods also and I lead him into the living room. 

"So I...I just wanted you to know things between Tim and I are over." 

I raise an eyebrow at him. 

"Well actually he left me." 

Ahh, that's why he's here. "And I care how?" 

He shifts on his feet for a second. "There is something still between us. You know it, I know it."

"No there's not." I mumble.

He clears his throat. "If there wasn't then explain to me why you fucked me raw?" 

"I was horny and just wanted to..." I try to make an excuse.

"Oh come off it Brian. You and I both know we never got over each other." 

He's right. I know it. "Fine. Maybe there still is. But I can't-"

"Why not? Why can't you just admit that you want to be with me as much as I want to be with you?!" He screams.

"I do!" I scream back. My brain doesn't register what I just said until a few seconds later. 

He stops and just stares at me.

"I do." I repeat. "Christ! I want to, okay?" 

Taking a step closer, he puts his hand on my arm. "Then what's stopping us?"

"I..." For an unknown reason I start to get pissed. "I'm married for one. I love Kevin."

"Fuck Brian! Would you stop trying to convince yourself of that?" He runs a hand through his blonde strands.

I don't know what say, so I just stand there breathing. 

"You told me the day of your wedding that you still loved me. You also said it last night. Is it true?" He asks softly.

I only nod.

"Good." He whispers and gently his lips touch mine. "Good." 

His lips are so soft that I can't help but kissing him back.

Pulling back, he looks me straight in the eye. "What about Kevin?"

"I can't keep living a lie." I tell him honestly. "Things haven't been working out for a while, but somehow we just keep forcing on." I press my lips against his once more.