I wanted to say it I really did. Looking into his eyes. Seeing the love and the joy. I really did. I even started to open my mouth. To say the words he's longed to hear from me. But I couldn't. I couldn't. I guess i'm not as brave or strong as he is. I love him. I do. But I can't say it. Because when I do he'll leave again. He'll leave me and then I won't ever be able to love anyone again. I want to. I do. 

"What?" Justin asks. I think i'm freaking him out a bit.

"Using my RAGE mind control powers." I tell him wishing the right words would come out for once.

Justin smirks. "Hmm. Take off your pants, bend over..."

I smile back. Hopefully one day i'll be able to tell him.

One day.